What a Friday :)

Got my kiddos today...I woke up two hours late to get them...Mark and I meet half way, which is a 3 hour drive for both of us. Last night I got my car...which is sooooo freaking sweet :) I didn't get home from the gym till late, fell asleep with my phone in my hands...which then it found itself under my bed, with the alarm ringing...I couldn't hear it :) When I woke I was so disoriented...I just really had a heck of a week trying to stay afloat with all the car troubles, doing the swimsuit contest, working every freaking day for I don't know how long...and I've been super strict on my diet which is knocking the wind out of me right now...but...let me finish my funny story then I will tell you about the gym :)

So I get the kids...I haven't seen my boy since I moved down here...he's snoring next to me right now...oh I didn't know I would ever miss that sound :) He snores louder than a freight train, has since he was a baby...we probably should get that looked into...or he'll never have a bride :) Anyhow, I had the most incredible workout tonight...I think it is because everything feels right having them with me. But anyhow...the kids saw the new car and they were in love :) Even Mark was like Damn...that's one heck of a car you got there :) Oh it's a muscle car all right...I love it...it's turning all the guys heads...hey a girls got to get attention one way or another :) Well the kids and I are on our way back to Madison from Green Bay...and we are talking and laughing, Markie is playing with the XM radio like its the freaking TV remote...I kept telling him pick a station and you are not changing it until we have heard one full song...Brianna and I wanted to listen to Hip Hop...Markie kept landing on the love channel...the boy don't like Hip Hop...he hates Diva music...he likes lincoln park and even the Fray....although I'm sure he would not like his friends knowing this...he is kind of a deep kid :) Oh he's happy and super hyper like me...so maybe it's that he needs that kind of music to slow down....but my sound system was cryin for some good Hip Hop and some car dancing :) So anyhow...all of a sudden I'm like...I think I missed my exit...because I remembered getting in the right lane because it was coming up...and oh boy that was a long time ago :) And I say oh well we'll just connect in Fond du Lac...not a big deal...and Brianna says "Mom...we already passed thru Fond du Lac" OMG...this car is so sweet and so fast and I was having so much fun with the kids...I drove an hour past the exit without noticing...I was almost in Milwaukee...and wouldn't you know....all of a sudden the traffic is getting heavy and there are ramp exits everywhere, and the road divides into more and more lanes...and I say to the kids..."Welcome to North Milwaukee :)" Then I say...I wish I could remember the name of the interstate that connects me to Madison...well it's 90 something I think...I dunno...everytime I ever went to Milwaukee it was for Brewers games and Mark drove...I never paid attention. Well we drove for a while...and ta da...there it was...and we were on our way :) Well maybe that wasn't that funny but if you are April, Angela, or Stacey...you know how this can happen...especially with me :) So we are coming off the ramp to connect to our interstate...and Markie yells out whoa....mama...as he braces himself for dear life...and I say what...it's a race car :) Well there was no getting my way in any other way...I'm knight rider :) Oh this cars going to get me in trouble...I should not have a car with this much muscle...it can't handle me :)

So anyhow I am still up right now because I did not get to the gym until super late. Well it's a Friday night...and nobody was in the gym but me...so of course I am posing and lifting and doing all kinds of crazy stuff I wouldn't do if it were busy, like hauling the back extension bench half across the room so I can use the pulley with it and do some awesome moves for the glutes :) I noticed as I was lifting my shoulders in the right lighting are starting to cap...that might be the super strict diet :) And I've got some serious vein action on my shoulders too...This is what I love, when the body is changing and you feel like nothing is happening, and then POW...something happens :) Yes...day in and day out at the gym...it's grueling and intense...and it's hard sometimes not to look for instant gratification especially when you have some killer workouts that tear down your body, mind, and all! But then you have those days where you see things happening and its exciting. I have days when I can not find it in me to push myself, and it frustrates me to no end and I end up crying puddles just trying to get past what is mentally stopping me. I've had a lot of those days this last month. But nothing felt like today...I felt so strong, and I really pushed myself...and I know it's because my kids are here, and I feel complete :)

Good night all...I'm falling asleep as I type this...